Friday, December 30, 2011

A Year in Review

My family makes my world go 'round.

Wow. What a year 2011 has been. Definitely a year of change - a new baby, a big move, and a new house. I have learned so much in the past year - I tolerate certain things more and tolerate other things less. Here are a few things I've learned this year that are becoming daily reminders:

The post-partum hormones don't go away. My heart has gone completely soft these days. I remember sitting on the couch when Isaiah was 5 days old struggling with his first pediatrician's office to get an appointment, then having to sit on the phone with insurance to figure something else out. I was tired, emotional, and irritated and just started crying. I said to my mom, "When do these hormones go away?" Her response: "Never." And they don't. The littlest things make me cry. I cry tears of joy, sadness, and frustration depending on the day and sometimes all emotions at once. So now I've learned to judge the over emotional/feel too deeply people of the world less, especially since I am one of them.

Time flies. Last January was the longest month of my life. I couldn't wait to have Isaiah and be done with pregnancy. Then I had him and blinked and the following 11 months are gone. I have found myself saying things like, "I can't wait until he can roll over...sleep through the night...crawl...walk...(fill in the blank)." I have found now those moments pass all too quickly. I saw a quote the other day that said, "when children are at your feet the days pass slowly but the years pass quickly." That is so incredibly true! As excited as I am to see what Isaiah will accomplish next, I also feel I can wait for the next milestone. Because at the end of almost every day before I close my eyes, I say to Darren, "Can you believe it? Where has the time gone?"

I am a super hero. I am by no means trying to toot my own horn and I don't care who disagrees with me, but I can accomplish more than I ever thought possible. There are days when I feel as strong as superman, as invincible as Wolverine, and as smart as Batman. There are days when I feel I must have 10 arms or two bodies to complete the daily duties I do and still have a happy baby by nightfall. Even on days when I get absolutely nothing done (and I mean NOTHING) and I don't know how I'm going to get through another day, Isaiah still looks at me, reaches for me, and snuggles with me and lets me know in his own way that I am still his super hero. And because of that, I have never felt a stronger purpose in my life.

Take parenting advice with a grain of salt. I love talking babies and parenting with everyone but sometimes I have to remind myself to not take advice so personally (from doctors, friends, family, strangers...anybody!) and not to give advice so definitively. Every baby is different and every parent is different as well. Sometimes it's easy to judge others for the way they parent or the way their kids behave when really, I need to remember that what happens at what age isn't a "by the book" topic and what's normal to me might be abnormal to someone else. What's right for me isn't always right or the comfortable choice for someone else and vice versa. I think it's great to learn and share with one another but certain topics and/or advice shouldn't be taken too personal. After all, no parent wants to feel like they're doing something wrong and we're all trying to do what's best for our babies, right?

Our God is an awesome God. End of story.

As 2011 comes to a close, I can truly say this has been one of the most incredible years of my life. I love my family more than words can express and I am so excited to see what the future has in store for the Moss family. As we begin the new year my resolution is to judge less, and love more (and READ more! Is anyone else having trouble finishing a book since they've had a baby???). Now that I'm a parent I feel like I can get through anything - the good, the bad, the ugly, the dirty - I have to. If not for myself, then for my family. So 2012...bring it!

CHEERS, everyone! And happy New YEAR!!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Isaiah's First Christmas!

No way!

Santa came!

This was the best Christmas I've ever had. After spending the last three Christmas's in San Diego it was great to spend this one in Washington with all our families but most of all, with our little guy. I thoroughly loved creating this memory with him.

We did Christmas with Darren's mom early in the week and it was low key and warmed Isaiah up to opening presents - I think he loved playing with the dog and wrapping paper most. Then Christmas Eve was spent with my family. We went to Capital Christian Center's Christmas Eve production at the Performing Arts Center. It was A.MAZ.ING. Besides the fact that we were on the fourth balcony and terrified, the music was great and the message was fabulous. I get chills every time I hear the story of the birth of Christ. This year brought tears to my eyes. Knowing how much I unconditionally love Isaiah reminds me of how incredible it is that God loves us even more. So much that he sent HIS son to live and die for US. Words cannot explain how great God is. In the pastor's message he said all God wants is a relationship from us. That's it. An open honest relationship. Because it's better to have a relationship with forgiveness than a relationship with answers. I love that.

After the service we went to my parent's to open gifts and EAT, EAT, EAT! Again, amazing. My brother made smoked sausage and ham and my dad made prime rib. I about died it was so good. Once we started opening presents it was chaotic, crazy, and wonderful. With all the grand kids there it was hard to distinguish who got who what and where things were buried under all that paper, boxes and bows. And again, amazing. The excitement of Christmas with the Scott family definitely tuckered Isaiah out. He seriously did not move from one position all night.

Christmas morning was a little more mellow than the night before but equally wonderful. Santa laid out his gifts nicely but instead of taring into them, he decided to eat a leftover Santa cookie. Aaah, memories. Isaiah loves all his gifts and Grady helped open most of them. That night Darren's dad and sister came over for dinner. We had a crock pot ham and I swear I'm never baking one again - it was soooo delicious. After everyone left we capped off the night with a glass of wine and we all never slept so good.

Merry Christmas, everyone!

Here are pictures from Christmas with Grandma Chris:

Here are some from Christmas Eve (I hardly took any, it was a little crazy!):

And, a few from Christmas night:

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

10 Months!!

Oh my goodness!!!!

My sweet boy is 10 months OLD! He absolutely amazes me every single moment. Isaiah is getting and acting so old it's hard to even consider him a baby anymore. He's busier than ever crawling, climbing furniture and stairs, cruising, and he can now stand on his own. We got him a few walking push toys that he's starting to figure out how to use. I'm in no hurry though - he'll walk on his own time. :)

He likes playing a little more rowdy too - be tossed in the air, wrestling with Grady, running around the house while on my shoulders. I DEFINITELY get a good work out in each day! He's eats pretty much anything and everything we eat and likes to feed Grady while in his high chair. His meals seem to be smaller (surprisingly) but I think it's just because he's more interested in getting back to his day of play.

He's starting to dislike his car seat and the only time I can get him to relax or sleep is if I play "Dear John" by Taylor Swift. It's random but it works. He naps once in the afternoon after having a bottle and sort of nurses in the morning and then again at night.

He wakes up about every 3 hours every night. I think it's because of teething (those top two are finally looking close). He's in his crib half the night and in our bed the other half. We're trying REALLY hard to get him in his crib but I'm so tired. When he doesn't want to be in there he goes ballistic - stands up, starts jumping and screaming. I refuse to leave him like that so I usually just keep laying him down and stay in there and sing to him and rub his back until he gets really close to dosing off then I leave.

Some people have advised to just let him cry and he'll "figure it out." I believe that works for some babies but it's not right for Isaiah. He's very sensitive and requires a lot of nurturing at bed time. Please pray that we get this worked out! I love my little man and there's a part of me that wants him in our bed (I have a little separation anxiety too) but the other part of me really wants to stretch out and sleeeeeep. :)

Other than that, Isaiah is my sweet little angel, full of life, energy and curiosity. I can hardly believe he'll be one in TWO MONTHS!

In this video he's "walking" with his toy. He's figuring out how to do it and LOVES the freedom!

A Very Special Christmas

I have always loved the holidays...Thanksgiving feasts, Christmas trees, Christmas decorations, Christmas spirit, and most of all celebrating the birth of Christ. I am even more excited this season to start some traditions with our little one. One thing I decided to do is give every child a copy of Twas the Night Before Christmas. I always loved this book and remember my mom reading it to us every Christmas Eve. I hope to carry on this tradition and also buy a copy for each child we have so they can keep it forever and one day read it to their children. On the inside I wrote a personal note to Isaiah along with the bible verse John 3:16 because I always want him to understand the true Spirit of Christmas and the reason we celebrate such a special holiday.